Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Todays Tidbits + My Mood Swings

Wow what a mood swing I had yesterday huh?

I usually don't get mood swings like that, but my 2 infertility buddies got their babies last year so I really don't have anyone to vent to... and yesterday I vented to my readers. Sorry.

It did feel good though. LOL

My mood swings about our trials are hit and miss. I'm usually okay with what has happened to us because you can't believe the blessings we have gotten from it. I stand all amazed at the Love Jesus offers me is an appropriate song for our family. We are so blessed. We have Beckham and there are thousands of couples who would die for that.

It's just those days when I think "Do you really have to teach me with my children?" But He does, if I had never lost a baby I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wouldn't be the mom I am today. I'm grateful, grateful for my trials and blessings, grateful to be a mom.

So yeah, sorry about yesterday... I'll vent to my journal from now on~ ;)


Today has been exciting... As some of you know my sister has moved to Tucson AZ and I get to go see her in a couple of weeks! I'm so excited for the 75 degree weather. I'm also so excited to see my nephew and niece. Sorry Michelle, I'm excited to see you too, but they are just so darn cute.


I'm kinda bummed out that Valentines is over... I just love pink, hearts, and most importantly remember those whom we love. Justin was a sweet husband and got me a ipod dock for valentines day. I got him a dorky phone cover.

Beckham got a new big boy bike and here is a page that I did with it.


Bethany said...

Your thoughts were honest and heartfelt. Please don't ever apologize for that. You have been given a huge challenge in your life. I know I'm not an infertility buddy, but if you ever need an ear and a shoulder, besides through the computer, I am always here for you. I think you are amazing and love you!

aLeXis said...

I am with Bethany...no apologies. I am so glad that you can vent....wherever it may be. You need that.

Looks like such a wonderful Valentines Day! Love Beckham on the bike. We need to get Brogan a big boy bike so badly. :)

Just dandee said...

Never feel you need to apologize for the way YOU feel. You can't keep it bottled up. It is good to get them out AND you never know who else might need to hear what you say.
I adore you Jamie. God does hear you and is mindful of your heart. Please call if you need ANYTHING.
Friday was so wonderful. We MUST do that more often. Yummy cookies!

Bennington's said...

I am a little late with this post but I want you to know you are truly a wonderful and great person.

You need to have your grievance and your time to heal. It will take sometime and the more you express your feelings to those who love you hopefully that will help you heal. Scream cry let it out and remember your Heavenly Father will be there to comfort you.

I can't say I completely know how you feel, but when Jason and I miscarried and it took two years for us to be able to be pregnant I asked myself those questions you are asking your self. I think it's normal and it's hard not to have those feelings. I remember right after we miscarried all my friends were coming out that they were pregnant. It's hard I kept my feeling bottled in I didn't want anyone to know how I felt. I think about you all the time, I thought about you when I became pregnant.You are such a great example and I couldn't believe how strong you were about this trail you were going through. I don't know if I could be as strong as faithful as you.

You are such a sweetheart and I know that some amazing things are in store for you and your family. I know you know these things but in some way I hope I could be of some comfort you. If you need a friend or someone to cry with I am more then happy to be there. I hope things will become easier for you.

Jessie said...

I agree with much of the above.

Also - I need more info on Michelle. I miss her! Tell her hi from me. I'm dying to know the stats on her kids. Will you fill me in?

Much love and happy thoughts your way. You're such a sweet little mommy.

Brenda said...

Don't apologize one bit. I am grateful you vented. You have been so brave and faithful through this and I appreciate you letting your guard down a bit and being honest. (I still feel you are faithful, I hope that isn't coming across wrong!) I am glad to know how you feel so I can know where you are coming from. I often think of how you were so shocked when you found out you were pregnant with Beckham. You weren't ready and it was too soon etc. Now...wow...who knew what a blessing that was. Love you Jamie!