Tuesday, June 22, 2010

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Now that you've scrolled down and screamed. I'll tell you the whole story!

March was really hard for me. Constantly getting calls from the Hospital making sure that I had everything in order for the coming birth of Nora. (Ya you’d think that they knew I had a stillborn, but apparently the maternity ward had miss placed my papers) So with the calling and constant reminders it was really hard. But we also got to see one of the Lords Tender Mercies. He knew how hard March would be and so He has blessed us with a pregnancy. Can you believe it? I still can’t. We weren’t even “trying” and weren’t going to for a few more months so we could give our broken hearts a rest. But the Lord knew something we needed and blessed us. He doesn’t stop there either, I’m due November 10 and our doctor says she wants to take us a week early which means I’m due on Nora’s birthday. It still gives me chills to think about that. I know how hard November is going to be and so does the Lord, so He gave us a gift.

That still doesn’t take away that this a nerve-wracking experience. I have faith, but having faith still doesn't take away all the uncertainty. For me its like, yes I have faith, faith in God's will, but I don't know what that will is, what if His will is to take this one too? That would be so hard, but at the same time I know that if that’s His will that is what is best in the eternal scheme of things. I know that Heavenly Father understands it all and that gives me comfort. He knows how I feel and I’m always in His best interest. I’m trying not to worry TOO MUCH but I have my moms genes so that doesn’t help... LOL. (Yes mom you are a worry wart) I’m currently 20 weeks. We have had a many doctors appointments and there is a heartbeat and a “Strong baby” according to all of our doctors. We are so excited and I pray that everything will go well with this one!!

When Justin was away on business last week the baby’s kicks stared to get stronger and on Saturday Justin felt the baby for the first time. I was so happy. He never could feel Nora and to this day I still feel guilty about that. I feel sad because I was the only one who could feel her when she was alive.

Only a close few knew that I'm pregnant. I bet I could still go a few more weeks at church before people start getting wandering eyes towards my belly. Justin thinks that I'm pushing it. What do you think?



Not big eh? What if I show you the progress though...



Now you can tell! Besides I think that I can start telling people... we're past the so called "Safe stage".

We had another appointment today and it was our "big" ultrasound. Everything looked great. No concerns for the doctors. It was so surreal getting good news for once. The sad thing though was that when we walked out of the ultrasound room... the “scary room” was occupied. The room where bad news is given. I could see the couple there sitting on those dreadful seats crying. I wanted to just tell them that I knew how they felt and although it’s so difficult it gets a little better with time. I pray that they find some comfort. I was really nervous for this appointment. This was the appointment when we found out that Nora had passed. This is the week that I lost her so I've been so nervous. But all is well and I can try to be happy and not worry again!

Here are a few shots of the little bean....



Trying to tell if it was a boy or girl was really hard. The baby was in a weird position not to mention its arm over its face...

But the verdict is in and....























We are so excited! To be honest I'm relieved that it's a boy. If I were to have a baby girl on Nora's birthday I think that would have been too much for me. Again the Lord knew exactly what we needed. The only bad thing about a boy is that Justin and I are going to have to compromise on a name. We had a girl name.. of course. But for the boy we both have our favorites, well he does. We are both thrilled that we having everything too. Wow I don't have to buy anything... I don't think. Maybe a few onsies but that's it!

Any who I love you all and I'll keep you posted about this baby! Still can't believe it! :)

19 comments:

kevin said...

CONGRATULATIONS !!!!

I'm so happy for you and Justin and Beckham.

Renae said...

HooRay!!!!
Tttssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
This is the best blog ever!!

Heather said...

A BOY!!! I'm so excited for you guys! I'm glad that the apt. went well. Beckham will love having a little sidekick to pall around with. Such great news for a great family!

Bethany said...

Oh Jamie, you are such an example of strength to so many. I couldn't be happier for anyone than I am for you and your family right now. What a beautiful blessing! You continue to be in our prayers.

jill said...

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy! Oh, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!

Congratulations, my sweet friend. I'm SO happy for you!!

Amy said...

yay!! So excited that you announced it and everything is still going well..I was thinking about you and hoping everything was still good. So fun another boy...Beckham will love having a little brother! I'm soooooooo happy for you guys!

Rider Girl said...

That is so exciting!!! :) Congrats! ill bet Beckham is very ecxited to be a big brother!!! :)

Jason & Kelli West said...

Jamie I am SO incredibly EXCITED and HAPPY for you! WOW, what a great blessing. YAY!! By the way, I think you could go another 5 weeks at church before anyone noticed you were pregnant. Girl you look great!!

Teresa said...

Jamie,
I am so happy for your family. What an amazing gift. Your stength is amazing by the way. Good Luck with the name thing it took us months to agree.

Just dandee said...

Congratulations! I am so happy you have finally announced this news! I have been so excited for you. But most of all I am thrilled that this little angel is strong and healthy. Oh and hooray for BOYS! Brothers are the best! I love you Jaime. Thanks for sharing your strength.

Layton's said...

HOORAY! I could not be more excited for you! You are such an example of strength for me! Congrats

Heather said...

Congrats!!! I can't believe this amazing news. I am so thrilled for you guys.

aLeXis said...

Yay! Yay! Yay! I am so glad that you are finally announcing this....although I still say your tummy is tiny and you could have gone longer. :) Much better to have everyone join in on the fun. I love your family so much and I couldn't be happier for all of you. I can't even begin to tell you how much of an example you are to me. You have so much strength and courage. And HOORAY for a little BOY! Now our little ones can play. ;) Love you and you will continue to be in my prayers!

Darwin and Kiara said...

CONGRATULATIONS, JAMIE!!! You have no idea how happy I was to read this post! I am SO happy for you guys!! I can imagine that it's super exciting but extremely frightening at the same time, knowing what you've gone through already. And congrats on a boy. So happy for you, darlin!

David and Tiffany said...

Jamie!!! I had no idea! Congratulations! I am so very happy for you and glad things are going well.

mike and elise said...

Yeah!!! I'm so glad that your doctor's appointment went well! I can't imagine how nerve-racking this must all be for you. I had a "normal" miscarriage inbetween Aiva and Emma and I was so paranoid with my pregnancy with Emma. I work at a hospital, and I did ultrasounds on myself every week because I was just so scared that she wouldn't be alive in there. Hang in there. Soon you'll have your sweet baby boy in your arms. :)

DottieLou said...

this is so awesome .. I am so happy for you ... congratulations

Sharcy and Jeremiah said...

I am so glad things are moving along well this time!!! Boys are truely tons of fun... I love my two! And yes, you probably could go a few more weeks at church :) Good luck with it all!!

Jessie said...

Wonderful wonderful wonderful! I'm thrilled at the news.