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Now that you've scrolled down and screamed. I'll tell you the whole story!

March was really hard for me. Constantly getting calls from the Hospital making sure that I had everything in order for the coming birth of Nora. (Ya you’d think that they knew I had a stillborn, but apparently the maternity ward had miss placed my papers) So with the calling and constant reminders it was really hard. But we also got to see one of the Lords Tender Mercies. He knew how hard March would be and so He has blessed us with a pregnancy. Can you believe it? I still can’t. We weren’t even “trying” and weren’t going to for a few more months so we could give our broken hearts a rest. But the Lord knew something we needed and blessed us. He doesn’t stop there either, I’m due November 10 and our doctor says she wants to take us a week early which means I’m due on Nora’s birthday. It still gives me chills to think about that. I know how hard November is going to be and so does the Lord, so He gave us a gift.

That still doesn’t take away that this a nerve-wracking experience. I have faith, but having faith still doesn't take away all the uncertainty. For me its like, yes I have faith, faith in God's will, but I don't know what that will is, what if His will is to take this one too? That would be so hard, but at the same time I know that if that’s His will that is what is best in the eternal scheme of things. I know that Heavenly Father understands it all and that gives me comfort. He knows how I feel and I’m always in His best interest. I’m trying not to worry TOO MUCH but I have my moms genes so that doesn’t help... LOL. (Yes mom you are a worry wart) I’m currently 20 weeks. We have had a many doctors appointments and there is a heartbeat and a “Strong baby” according to all of our doctors. We are so excited and I pray that everything will go well with this one!!

When Justin was away on business last week the baby’s kicks stared to get stronger and on Saturday Justin felt the baby for the first time. I was so happy. He never could feel Nora and to this day I still feel guilty about that. I feel sad because I was the only one who could feel her when she was alive.

Only a close few knew that I'm pregnant. I bet I could still go a few more weeks at church before people start getting wandering eyes towards my belly. Justin thinks that I'm pushing it. What do you think?



Not big eh? What if I show you the progress though...



Now you can tell! Besides I think that I can start telling people... we're past the so called "Safe stage".

We had another appointment today and it was our "big" ultrasound. Everything looked great. No concerns for the doctors. It was so surreal getting good news for once. The sad thing though was that when we walked out of the ultrasound room... the “scary room” was occupied. The room where bad news is given. I could see the couple there sitting on those dreadful seats crying. I wanted to just tell them that I knew how they felt and although it’s so difficult it gets a little better with time. I pray that they find some comfort. I was really nervous for this appointment. This was the appointment when we found out that Nora had passed. This is the week that I lost her so I've been so nervous. But all is well and I can try to be happy and not worry again!

Here are a few shots of the little bean....



Trying to tell if it was a boy or girl was really hard. The baby was in a weird position not to mention its arm over its face...

But the verdict is in and....























We are so excited! To be honest I'm relieved that it's a boy. If I were to have a baby girl on Nora's birthday I think that would have been too much for me. Again the Lord knew exactly what we needed. The only bad thing about a boy is that Justin and I are going to have to compromise on a name. We had a girl name.. of course. But for the boy we both have our favorites, well he does. We are both thrilled that we having everything too. Wow I don't have to buy anything... I don't think. Maybe a few onsies but that's it!

Any who I love you all and I'll keep you posted about this baby! Still can't believe it! :)